Tuesday, April 5, 2011

And So It Goes

So everything just went back to normal. Things are settled and so are my emotions. I’ve been the least apologetic person in the world but I said sorry. It sucks to know that I’ve made a mistake and screw up and I must take full responsibility for my actions. But at the end of the day, things happen and you just have to cope up.

I once hated March. I am still not very fond of the month but I don’t hate that much. “It” happened in March and the “It” word constitutes every awful event that happened to me in the recent years. An election loss, graduation that’s yet to happen, shocking news of dismissal, break-up and family gatherings (which always puts me in a miserable position). Yeah, my Lady Luck somehow managed to schedule her vacation during this month for the past two years. And I was left there bewildered, paralyzed and depressed. But then again, you move on and forge ahead.

I told someone once that I may go somewhere and make a great escape. It happened. But not for long since escaping from your problems doesn’t get you to anywhere. I once thought I could live another life and forget about my past. But then you’ll realize how many people suffers much more than you do, how many people actually have been there for you, supporting and caring for you, how many people managed to bounce back and got successful in their life.

I am thankful that I am actually facing these adversities this early in my life. I learn what others may experience in their 40’s where they may get depressed and succumb to failure then die. I learned things the harder way and it made me much stronger; much stronger than the boy who first walked the streets of Diliman. I learned a lot throughout these trying times and I am taking note of everyone who had/has been there for me every step of the way.

And so it goes. I may not be able to get what I want now, but I will sure catch up. God knows I am trying.


  1. "I am thankful that I am actually facing these adversities this early in my life." TRUE THAT! Haha!

    Sinabi ku ini nyang Tribute yu, haha. Oita, I know people might think our failures make us "less", but the way I see it, we're hardcore -- because we survived, never gave up and bounced back. Ila ba, asabi da agyuan da ing inagyu tamo? ALI. Haha.

    It takes a great character to be successful in life. But it takes much more to fail and yet still be standing. :D

  2. Hardcore, indeed. Haha. Atleast, asabi ta na we've been there and we got (are getting) over those obstacles. I mean, it's not easy to be down there. Pag atiu ka keta, arealize mu ngan.

  3. gboi, sorry ngeni ku la mu abasa reng posts mu. you have always been there for me, so though late, i hope you know that i will always be here for you too. :)

    just a few weeks ago, i was faced with the possibility of not graduating - and more than the fear na e ku mag graduate, worse was the feeling na for the first time in my life, i will be a disappointment to my parents. over the years i kinda measured success with academic achievements. but now, i realized that the kind of success that matters is what you showed me - whatever happens, i can call myself successful because during the time when i was down, there were people, including you, who were there for me and told me that they believe in me. i believe in you. :)

    sabi nga ng friend ko, getting a diploma from UP is not going to be easy, but in the end you know that it's gonna be worth it. hug! :)

  4. Nic! Thanks. Well, the world's not gonns be kind to everyone and since it is not in our advantage at the moment, we just have to suck it up and move on. Kaya natin to.

  5. i remember that time na buri mung maggreat escape. sobrang down mu kanta at palagi ka pang magchurch visit and lawen mu, inagyu mu la ngan detang problema at issues mu kanta. maniwala ku na agyu mu la ulit lagpasan den. you're a strong person at dakal tau ing makapaligid keka para makiramdam keka at sopan ka ken. atiu kumu din keni. agyu mu yan. :)

  6. who would have thought na agyuan ku pala ita ne. I mean, i was on the verge of doing it but then, i realize i am not gonna give up. Yeah, i do hope na maging ok ngan. Thanks abi.

  7. Wait, wait, wait -- Gboi, church visits?! Haha! Kidding! :D

  8. Wa, kuya, everyday halus kanita. haha.